![]() I can feel myself taking the small steps to regain independence and it feels so good. Exhausting, but good. I celebrate all the small victories and am grateful every day to wake up, live in this lifetime, and for the opportunity to heal. Even though my energy and stamina last only about one hour every day, those thoughts of gratitude are constantly on the forefront of my mind. I am entering the next stage of healing which is active recovery. And let me tell you, I say ACTIVE because it is!! Every day I attend 1-2 appts to actively support the recovery from surgery, chemo and radiation. It’s so crazy to think that before my diagnosis I was a healthy person. No aches or pains, just a noticeable loss of energy. But now due to the treatment that saved my life, I am learning how to do things correctly that I never even had think about such as speaking, swallowing, turning my head, lifting my arm and resting. So this is a week in the life of recovery: Monday: Acupuncture, Physical Therapy Tuesday: Speech/Swallow Therapy, Chiropractor Wednesday: IVC, Mineral and Nutrient Infusion Thursday: Chiropractor Friday: Pain Management/Active Release Therapy In the midst of those appointments I do make time to rest. Those are doctors orders and they’re the experts! I limit visitors because my white blood count is still very low and to engage with others steals much needed energy from my family at this point. But I make sure to take a nap, do some writing, or watch a movie/show on TV. In fact, the majority of the day is still in bed. Although my body is healing, my brain is pretty active! Thankfully my anxiety has subsided and my thoughts are more into creating again. It feels good to be “back in my body”, so to speak. Remaining patient for my body to catch up to my mind is a true practice of slowing down and remaining present, but if it means a full recovery (which I plan on having), I’m up for the challenge! And I have all the love, support, dinners, childcare, and donations of my friends and family to thank. They have provided me and my family the time and space to dedicate to healing and we are eternally grateful. I could not do an ounce of this without knowing I had a crowd of cheerleaders behind me. And, THAT's what life is about.
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marty
12/5/2018 09:47:45 am
you are the most amazing and beautiful person i know. you have courage and strength in every single aspect of your life. your generosity of self is what feeds you more than food ever could. my heart is full of love and healing energy that i continue to send your way.
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Amie Lands
3/14/2019 03:42:43 pm
Marty, I am so grateful for the times we have spent together and the healing journey we have travelled beside one another. You are truly a gem in my life and I loved our time this summer. That experience transformed my healing. I am so grateful for you and the safe space you provide. I hope we can get together again soon.
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Deb Olcott
12/6/2018 07:45:02 am
Amie, I could literally burst into tears, such is the relief in hearing that you are in "active" recovery. I realize that I have been holding my breath, praying that you WILL fully recover! I love you so, and am so inspired by your willingness and ability to share your life's journey. You truly take my breath away. I long to see you, look into your eyes and embrace you. <3
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Amie Lands
3/14/2019 03:43:28 pm
Thank you for your continued love and support. I have been holding my breath too, but I am ready for that ice cream now!!!
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