Nothing ever stays the same. In moments of chaos, uncertainty and decisions to be made, THIS is peace.
Sitting outside feeling the cool breeze, warm sun and smelling the spring flowers with my boy, THIS is peace.
Family is peace.
Nature is peace.
Breathe in, breathe out.
Be present, be now.
Nothing is more important than this moment.
March already?! Spring is near, the time is changing, lighter later, flowers blooming, new growth in nature, new life forming. It's a time for renewal, a time for re-birth.
It's crazy to feel like a normal mama to our 6 month old boy, figuring out how to balance my boy, work, groceries, cooking, exercise, writing, and leaving some time to give my husband attention, too. How do people do it? I have no idea. still. I think you just keep waking up, getting out of bed and trying again. I have learned that's the secret for most things in life, put one foot in front of the other & just keep trying!
It has been nearly a year and a half since we last held our sweet girl, I can't believe how far away that feels now yet how in an instant I could be thrown back there so quickly. Last month, realizing she would have been a year and a half is so hard to imagine, she will always be my sweet 6lb 9oz baby whose bootie fit so perfectly in the palm of my hand. I miss her so.
I look at this boy, I watch him grow right before my eyes and time is flying with him! Everyday is something new, some discovery he has made or new skill he has mastered. It's also so incredible that one can function on such small amounts of sleep. There is so much I want to do but the days are so short and the nights are so long. We spend about 12 hours a night in bed but usually only sleep about 7 of them. It's crazy making but so much fun.
Life is busy. Life is crazy. Life feels like a whirlwind, too. It's a happier whirlwind than last year, I am laughing and smiling now, but a whirlwind none the less.
I am mama of three beautiful babes; two sons whom I have the privilege of raising and my daughter who lived for 33 sacred days.