I had many firsts this week, including making my family dinner! I will start with that exciting news because food is my favorite, but there are many (more important) firsts to share! But each victory, large and small, are celebrated in my home and in my heart every single day. Beyond cooking dinner this week, I:
And THAT is the biggest one, being on my own with my youngest son. He was not even 2 when I got diagnosed and I feel such sadness in what I had to give up because there was no alternative. Breastfeeding stopped before either of us were ready, our nighttime routine was severely interrupted but mostly, it brings tears to my eyes that I couldn’t be alone with him for the last 5+ months because I couldn’t take care of or lift him. It breaks my heart, in fact. I do however, find comfort in the fact that he is so resilient and doesn't seem to be affected at all by the changes in our home. It brings tears of joy and gratitude that he is so loved at his daycare, that my amazing husband manages our family without complaint, and that my friends & family have helped with both our boys-many times while I was sitting in the same room.
It's amazing to think how in an instant life can change, yet I am no stranger to that reality. But this is life-and I am so grateful for LIFE💞 Here's to more FIRSTS!
I am mama of three beautiful babes; two sons whom I have the privilege of raising and my daughter who lived for 33 sacred days.