I have been feeling distant from myself as can happen when the pace of life picks up, I miss my writing days. But days filled with little boy laughter, smiles, grunts and farts are worth the lack of time...
I wanted to write a tribute to Ruthie Lou as I did for her brother but then I was reminded of writing from when she was alive, when I would write with her in my arms and NOTHING could compare to that moment in time. I wrote the following so that I would never forget how special my girl was, how important her life was and how incredibly much I love her. As if I could EVER forget.
Happy Valentines Day my sweet loves, RL & RW.
**Things I <3 about Ruthie Lou**
The faces she makes when I make out with her
Her puckered lips
Her popeye face
Her grunty noises
The way she moves her mouth all over
How she wiggles, squirms & moves her mouth when she wakes up then stretches her feet out straight
She likes to be held close to your body
The smell of her baby johnsons hair
Beautiful long fingernails, short stubby toenails and missing pinky nail
Skinny legs with rolls
Her little pug nose, long curly blonde eyelashes, crazy blonde eyebrows remind me of papa jock
Her amazing crazy hair, the perfect mix of mama and dad
Blonde, red, brown golden straw hair
She can lift her right eyebrow and wrinkle her forehead
Her crooked smile as she sleeps
Running my fingers thru her hair
Her Flintstone feet
**Ruthie Has Taught Us...**
Imperfections are what make us Perfect
Parties are worth waking up for
That her dad is amazing, more amazing than I ever knew
Sunsets are magical
I love to write
Can't plan and schedule everything
How to share
Family is number one
Friends are your family, too
Kisses make everything better
Appreciate the little things
Don't sweat the small stuff
Hug your kids tighter
Every morning we wake up is a blessing
Sunsets are beautiful
**Blessings from Ruthie Lou**
Reunited a marriage, gave two boys their parents back
Helped a mama love her girls with all choices in life, good and bad
Uncle ****** made it on time to Ruthie Lou's blessing
Made DAD LOVE ME even more
Made ME LOVE DAD even more
Families are slowing down for time with each other
Brought new friends together
I am in love being Reid's mama, he is a part of me still even though he is now apart from me. We have an understanding of one another that I never want to lose but since he must grow, alas, I will treasure each and every moment with this sweet boy.
I love the feeling of his hand wrapped around my finger, holding my hand while his love holds my heart.
I love breast feeding him and his soft hand gently rubbing my chest.
I love rocking him and his warm body contoured to mine.
I love dancing with him and his eyes smiling up at me.
I love sleeping with his snuggled body meshed next to mine.
I love bath time that is more about playing than getting clean.
I love wearing this boy on long walks, sharing with him all that is nature around us.
i love reading him books and watching his mind learning with such wonder.
I love soothing him when he is crying out for his mama.
I love staring at his sweet face, us smiling at one another.
I love the sound of laughter brightening the silent walls of our home.
I love waking in the morning to a smile so bright it could light up all the sadness in my heart.
I love our sweet boy Reid, for all he has brought, all that he is and all that will grow to be.
I am mama of three beautiful babes; two sons whom I have the privilege of raising and my daughter who lived for 33 sacred days.