I woke up yesterday morning after a restless nights sleep. It was amazing having Ruthie Lou sleep in our room with us but it also brought such anxiety of listening to her breathe all night with the fear she would stop at any moment. Any little change in her breathing woke me up and I felt myself awake more than I was asleep. It did however afford me some very sweet quality moments with little miss Ruthie Lou.
At one time, I took her to the couch with me and we slept there but eventually she just ended up in our bed between Chris and I where we could just reach out and touch her at any moment. Since I slept so poorly, our morning yesterday started very slowly, but who am I kidding, I move slow in the morning on a regular day! So we got in great naps on the couch and lots of lounging, but I suppose that is what you do with a newborn anyways... Lots of rest.
A photographer visited us yesterday and not being quite sure how that was going to go, it turned out to be amazing! We could see some of the shots that he got immediately and they were beautiful. Even Chris, who many of you know a camera comes near him and his very sweet face immediately grimaces, looked relaxed and so loving in the pictures we saw. Ruthie Lou of course looked stunning! She is just the absolute most beautiful thing I have ever seen and she did amazing as we moved from one spot to the next.
The evening proved to be just as relaxing as the day. We ate dinner outside and after, took a little stroll out to the garden. We circled the grounds and checked out the landscaping, it is captivating here. Every little last detail has been thought of and it is breathtaking. There are little creatures and birds flying about from tree to tree, flower to flower, we even saw a hummingbird land. I don't know about you, but we had never seen one actually land before! Not stop at a feeder or flower to feed, but actually stop on a branch and sit there a moment, they certainly are cute little guys. We were excited to show Ruthie Lou the hummingbird.
As night fell and we got sleepy, ordinarily I like to stay up as late as I can because I don't want to leave her or I feel worried that we may not get tomorrow, but last night was not the case. We had had a beautiful day, so relaxing and wonderful. We couldn't have asked for a nicer time together. I found myself feeling at peace last night as we lay Ruthie Lou between us on the bed, which is just the most peaceful place for us to have her. Laying right between her mama & her dad and just for a moment, all was right in the world.
I am mama of three beautiful babes; two sons whom I have the privilege of raising and my daughter who lived for 33 sacred days.